An Open Letter To My Husband

[Amylynn920]

Hi Honey,

I wanted to talk with you in a place where I could possibly help others as well as a place where I'm comfortable talking about sex. This is somewhat hard for me to talk about so I figured a letter is easier, since the words don't like to come out sometimes and the forums here seem to fit the best of both of those worlds.

The community here has allowed me to blossom, to express my sexuality and to find a place to come when I need to talk, but don't have someone that I can talk to about things. I can't always talk to my real life girlfriends. They just don't think like me. They don't understand the sexual me. I think I scare them sometimes or I make them look at a part of themselves that truly frightens them. Well Sunflower and Angelkisses I do talk to alot in real life, because I found them here, and we are of a like mind. We love sex, and our husbands. And we talk about it. Often.

Here, I can be me. No judgement. I can rant, express thought, frustrations, issues, and I get some pretty good advice and more than a few laughs.

So I think this is a great place to post my letter to you as well as possibly help another person going through this.

I love you. Very, very much. I know I tell you that a million times a day but I really do. And I love having sex with you. I want our sex life to be better than good. And I want to watch us grow.

You know when I met you I was in a bad place. I was in a marriage that was pretty much in name only.

I went from being a daughter to a girlfriend to a wife and then mother. And somewhere along the line, I lost me.

When you came into my life, it was an awakening of sorts. I had to learn what it was like to be in a relationship and handle something new. Sexual feeling. I always thought I knew what sex was. Boy was I ever wrong.

When I met you, I blossomed. I became a woman again, after so many years of being just a receptacle. I learned to feel. And I learned to desire and I learned that I'm worth all of those feelings.

My past sex life was terrible, you know that, we've talked about it so many times. But I want you to know just how much of an awakening you have given me.

For the first time since we were together I got to experience what it's like to have an orgasm with another person. He never gave me that. And for that I will never forget what that first time was like. I cried. And it wasn't because of hormones or some fancy neurological thing happening in my brain, it was gratitude. And knowing that I was experiencing everything I had ever read about. I never thought it would happen to me.

There were so many "firsts" with you. First oral, first anal. First time that I was actually "made love" to.

After a few months, of being with you, I found this place. And I know you were thinking to yourself, ok she's completely over the edge here. All of a sudden I was talking sex. A lot. A real lot Packages were coming in the mail. Things that buzzed and moved faster than any human were appearing in our bed.

And I was like a kid in a candy store. Then I became a reviewer. Wow that was a first. Now 4 or 5 things that no human could do were making daily appearances. And I know you felt bad. You felt not quite up to par. You felt a bit apprehensive. I understood that. Remember the night you asked me the question "Why do you like these toys" and my answer was "they're fun." And that was not enough for you, you needed specifics and I couldn't tell you because I didn't have a better explanation.

But the simple truth was they are fun. And they are new to me. And I really like them, not as much as you, but they are fun. Kind of like A1 sauce on steak. You don't need it, but it sure makes the steak different when you have it.

I knew all of this was new to to you too. I spent many, many weeks trying to figure out what it was about the new me that was coming into being and how it was affecting you. I knew you didn't quite know what to think of me. I couldn't answer very many questions because I was finding answers myself.

I asked so many questions here, I questioned myself, and still do. Like "Is this right? Should I be trying new things? Or should I just be a "good" girl and put the toys away and stop being the sex goddess?" "Is it really ok to not only like, but ask for anal sex?" "Am I bad girl because I swallow?" No matter what you told me, I still questioned myself. Was there something wrong with me when I was so different from my long term (20 years plus) friends?

Well I really think the answer is Hell no. And you know why? Because I want sex to be the best it ever can be with us. I want to never stop having fun. And sex is fun time. It's play time. Serious time is for bills, and family crisis, and the daily life we all lead.

When I close the bedroom door with you, it's our time. Our world.

You and I talk about alot of things, and that's good. I want us to be everything to each other. I want to experience so many things. I don't want to wake up in 15 years and say "I should have." So these are some things I really want to do and experience with you. Because I love you and I think you are sexy as all get out.

I want us to make love more often. I know we go through marathon days, and then we break. But that's not what I'm asking for. I want to make love I want to have the long slow kisses. Lots of them. Lots. I want to feel your tongue more in my mouth. I want neck nuzzles.

I want you to slow down, and really touch me. To feel every curve of my body, and feel my skin.

I want to feel your breath on me. I like when we have those animal moments, but I want to slow down.

I want you to tell me what you feel when you're with me. I need to hear that. I need to hear how I feel, and how I taste.

I love hearing you. So please be more vocal. I know it's hard, but it's what I'd like.

I want to try different positions. Even if we never get it right and we don't look like porn stars, who cares? I want to feel you in a different way. So turn me over and stand me on my head. Just kidding, don't do that. I'm not as limber as I once was.

But maybe the kitchen table??

I want you to handcuff me and do things to me. I never did that, and I think I may like it.

I want you to grab a few toys and surprise me. Let's have fun!

I want to have more oral sex with you. I want to get as much as I give. And I know I give you alot. Because I want to, and I know it's something you really love. I want it alot. Your mouth on me is the most intimate and mind blowing thing. The world stops when you do that to me. You make me feel wonderful and loved when you do that so please, please, more often.

I want to take a shower with you. I want to wash your back and have you wash mine. I want to make shampoo hairstyles and watch the soap run off you.

I want to sit on the couch and make out with you. I never had a chance to do that when I was a teenager. I think it's fun. We don't have to have sex, but I just want to make out once in a while. Maybe we could go parking? Or how about grabbing a blanket late at night and go lay in the backyard and look at stars and lightning bugs and maybe make love under a full moon?

I want to watch a porn movie with you. I want to laugh at it, and get turned on by it, and maybe have sex while it's playing. If we don't like it we can shut it off. Women do like porn. We don't compare our men to what's on the screen. We just are visual too.

I want to spend time alone with you, just me and you. No kids, no in laws. No nothing. No tv, or computer. I don't care what we do, but I want to refocus back on us. Sometimes I feel like we tend to put us on the back burner.

I want you to shave my legs again. I really liked that. It was fun and sexy. And I want some really pretty lingerie.

I want you to share your fantasies with me. You must have some, everyone does. I promise I won't think you're weird or laugh. I'll do my best to make them come true.

I want you to show me how important I am to you. I know you tell me all the time, but show me. Make me a card. leave me a note, or text me. I want that fun stuff. I think it's romantic and sexy.

I want to be everything you ever wanted, I want to spend the next 40 years of my life exploring you and us. And I love you, more than I can ever put into words.

A.

[angelkisses98]

sweetie, its a perfect letter. not over bearing, but honest and loving. you hit the nail on the head. you deserve everything in that letter and more!! you are an amazing woman and deserve all the love and passion that this world has to offer.

**hugs and smooches**

G

[sun_flower969]

sweetie, its a perfect letter. not over bearing, but honest and loving. you hit the nail on the head. you deserve everything in that letter and more!! you are an amazing woman and deserve all the love and passion that this world has to offer.

**hugs and smooches**

G

Ditto that! Hopefully he will read this and be on board. <3 ya!

[ManofHerdreams]

Wow your husband is a very lucky man. You have been very open and honest and there isn't any more that a person could ask for.

If my wife wrote me a letter like that I might just pass out.

Men who really care for their wives want to know these things but we are usually left to feel our way along as we stumble through the dark. I know that face to face sometimes we all have problems putting our true thoughts and feelings into words but you've done an excellent job of that.

I applaud you and only wish that all SO's would be so honest and open with their partners.

I'm glad you have reached a point in your life where you feel free to express yourself in an open forum. That takes guts but more so it takes love and commitment.

If hubby doesn't know just how lucky he is just have a wife that cares enough to do this, just have him come here and I'll be glad to tell him.

He truly is a lucky man.

[cmwise1]

That's a beautiful letter, Aiden. I hope you get all that you wish for and that your hubby gets the same!

[mystofpric]

Aww! You husband is a very lucky man and I'd be willing to bet he jumps all over it!

[Valntyn]

*hugs A tightly* Very nice, hon. Very sweet, very honest, very well-written.

[colletteski]

Wow, I almost cried, that's beatiful! I hope you get all of your wishes and more.

[Guest cockney]

Aiden Angel.

What a beautiful letter. But how sad you felt the need to write it. Very courageous. All of us hope he responds well. He will if he understands what a gift you are.

Thinking of You, C

[Beunolas]

/clap

Fantastic. Something like this is what I was waiting for my entire last relationship and never got. Your husband is truly lucky.

[Amylynn920]

Aiden Angel.

What a beautiful letter. But how sad you felt the need to write it. Very courageous. All of us hope he responds well. He will if he understands what a gift you are.

Thinking of You, C

Thanks Cockney.

I don't see myself as a gift. I kinda just came along with everything kwim?

Sometimes I write easier than I talk. But it's all good. I don't know if he has read it. I told him I didn't know if I wanted him to yet.

Sometimes he can make me feel very shy.

[Amylynn920]

/clap

Fantastic. Something like this is what I was waiting for my entire last relationship and never got. Your husband is truly lucky.

Thanks Beun.

[Amylynn920]

*hugs A tightly* Very nice, hon. Very sweet, very honest, very well-written.

Thanks Val, your thoughts mean alot to me.

[Amylynn920]

Ditto that! Hopefully he will read this and be on board. <3 ya!

Never know when Darth Orgasm will make an appearance to the boards.

[Amylynn920]

It was read and now I'm sorry I wrote it. I just feel like I maybe should have kept that to myself. Not that there was any negative thing that was said, I just feel like I should have kept it to myself. Oh well.

[thurisas]

I know how hard a letter like this can be to write and yet be so much easier at the same time. This is a beginning or a continuation to be sure, but make sure you are prepared for the conversations that will come from this as feelings, both good and bad, will certainly come into play that are easier to argue in a one-sided note than a face to face conversation. I wish you all that you asked for in this note and more. I, too, think your husband is a very lucky man and I hope he sees you for the remarkable woman you are.

Randy.

[Amylynn920]

I know how hard a letter like this can be to write and yet be so much easier at the same time. This is a beginning or a continuation to be sure, but make sure you are prepared for the conversations that will come from this as feelings, both good and bad, will certainly come into play that are easier to argue in a one-sided note than a face to face conversation. I wish you all that you asked for in this note and more. I, too, think your husband is a very lucky man and I hope he sees you for the remarkable woman you are.

Randy.

Ty Randy.

I just don't know why that man has the ability to make me feel so shy and like a virgin all over again.

You and Val inspire me everyday, and I am so proud to call you my friends.

Yes he may be lucky, but I am indeed too.

[Mikayla1]

That took balls! (or a vagina )

I think all women need to write similar letters to their SO - just to connect the thoughts and the emotions and put them out there. I hope your hb really appreciates how much went into that letter.

[Amylynn920]

I hope so too Mik. It was scary.

[sbayhylle]

I'm crying here. I know how much that took for you to write it and I applaud you.

[synirr]

It was read and now I'm sorry I wrote it. I just feel like I maybe should have kept that to myself.

Well I for one am glad you didn't! If someone wrote a letter like that to me, I'd be filled with nothing but overwhelming love, as I'm sure he is. You're beautiful

[Guest cockney]

It was read and now I'm sorry I wrote it. I just feel like I maybe should have kept that to myself. Not that there was any negative thing that was said, I just feel like I should have kept it to myself. Oh well.

You needed to get that out and have a way for him to see it. Don't be sorry. It was beautiful You didn't say anything mean. You didn't criticize. Just a lovely plea for what you want & how he could help to make things better. Its not like you screamed at him in the living room in front of all his friends and family.

[Amylynn920]

He has seen it.

And so far it has not made a difference. I asked him if he saw it, he said yes, and that was about it.

[angelkisses98]

He has seen it.

And so far it has not made a difference. I asked him if he saw it, he said yes, and that was about it.

awww sweetie...you know already know my thoughts on this...i will say only this...

you deserve so much more then this A....so much more...you deserve someone who will love and give to you...just as much as you love and give to the.

[sun_flower969]

I just don't get it seriously! He is a tough nut to crack. How are you doing? PM or call me